I have not done a painting in months
Maybe a year so no one wants
To comment on my images.
I feel not angry though unsatisfied
This way I can make my ego a thing that died
or at least is harnessed to be allied.
I want to set my ego free without loosing me
But I want my dignity and my way of life to be
Respectable and worthy to call myself a human
Because in my book we can rise above so we should.

I want to loose myself in a painting
I want to loose myself in everything
That I attempt to experience
From beyond the fence.
I want to find a river that I can swallow
Something that will make me feel not hollow
I want nothing if that's what I need
Tell me what I need to feed to stop the bleed
I need to find and understand
Why I am the way I am
What I can do to help you
What I can stop to slow the clock.
I can make guesses without knowing
I suppose I could ask the road